a lot has gone on, but I am just writing this real quick so I can use this later to remember something that really sparked... that really got me thinking.. it's gonna be okay..
It is...
Like on Groundhogs day.. Time is painful if we perceive it as dull... yet everyday, everything .. it may seem the same.. but it is different... and it is all about how I approach the day.. yea. It can feel the same.. life can feel the same... depression confuses the soul, mind..
makes me think there is no way to fix or get out of the pain.. it will always be so....
yet nothing is so.. it defies truth. yet you believe it full heart & soul.. you are clouded and in pain.. the pain will not subside. Yet, now I think after watching the edge of tomorrow moving with tom cruise.. I realized something big.. Life, yes.. is the same dull droining feelins.. the same pain.. the same day.. yet.. it is not. Like in the movie, it can be altered, everything is different and time reacts different nothing is fully 100% the same...
It is new.. it is alive. it is ever flowing..
Like that.. so can my life.. it is not stuck.. I can change.. I can make the best.. I can win this fight.. I will think more on the contrast of this.. but it was bigger than I am writting now...
